Yaaaaaayy
october
- collecting myself
- vacuuming
- playing the cards that i'm given (solitaire in lecture, on the subway) (continued from september)
- losing sleep over comics for girls (more of the same)
- one night a year to wear a neck tie
- self-soothing through music im familiar with
- telling myself i need to drop out
- telling myself im the GOAT
annotating my month playlist (cheating, my actual playlist was a whopping 42 songs long this time around! not doing all that though) (actually i would do more but im sticking to 24)
- Last Romeo - INFINITE : was watching a video where L (not from death note) (one of three of the guys i know) is with shownu (if that's how to spell his name) and jungwoo and the song is mentioned. one im not familiar with but i looked it up and it was fire; was watching their dance practice and it was like cocomelon for my impressionable (?) mind. or at least thats what i wrote about it in a note to self
- My My - Apink :
- Nobody Knows Me At All - The Weepies, Deb Talan, Steve Tannen : must have found it from a playlist but i forget which
- Company - Tinashe : "sassy womandemic"
- Sorry - Madonna : see above
- Bubble - STAYC :
- VALENTINE - JYJ : really only for junsu and also jaejoong. after a comment someone made about wanting to see jaejoong sing "put a hickey on my neck" with how he is now at their concert in november; side note, speaking of the concert, imagine them singing Maximum and performing it like ot2 tvxq Like I would Scream. no thats so weird also it would never happen. but let me and the 5 other people in the comments of the audio from the dance practice where they were practicing to the version of the song recorded before they left entertain this absurd hypothetical.
- Harlem's Nocturne - Alicia Keys : seen from someone from high school whose face i recognize
- Gotta Get Thru This - D'N'D Radio Edit - Daniel Bedingfield, D'N'D Productions :
- 遺忘 - Winnie Hsin : song i recognize from my dad's mp3 files. identified it by coincidence; he was playing a different song from the same artist in the car ride back from seeing leaves and i guessed (correctly. because im Genius) that it was from around the mid 90s since it sounded like a song by the cranberries or faye wong ("Wáng Fēi")
- worst case scenario - 네스티요나 : from a friend's playlist; also coincidentally found yona's instagram a few days prior and it was inspiring
- WHERE ARE YOU? "MY HERO" - Tommy february6 : haha! like "HERO" "Youngwoong Jae-joong" "JEJUNG"
- You Make Me Want To Be A Man - Utada :
- Call my name - BoA : a few days of listening to 私このままでいいのかな (2018 japanese (oh no kidding) album) and this came on shuffle afterward
- LET ME SEE - JYJ :
- Whiplash - aespa : as a general rule i follow female artists broadly and casually and i follow male artists selectively and obsessively; its kind of weird when i hear my sister listening to aespa. that's my thing. funny thing i noticed: they have a song titled "just another girl" (like. Like. froooom) in this mini album (but sorry girls postmalone "alternative" will never compare to real 2013 angst). funny thing i didn't myself notice: another song has its chorus themed around "flowers" and "gardens"
- FRONT LEFT SPEAKER - deBasement : from someone's "as of recent" playlist
- Club classics featuring bb trickz - Charli xcx, Bb trickz : see above
- I'm Every Woman - Whitney Houston : from a joke i made about how i was going to wear a tie and a white button up shirt for halloween to be light yagami from deathnote (but really i could be any and "every woman")
- All Night - Girls Generation :
- Another Life (feat. Rema) - PinkPantheress, Rema :
- Crash - Gwen Stefani : from a daylist playlist, probably based on the days i was listening to "sassy womandemic"
- Forgotten Season - TVXQ! : on the last night of the 10th month
- Light no Theme - Hideki Taniuchi :
september
- granola bars while walking
- buying juice
- hand-writing letters
- reading on the subway
- sitting on stairs and benches
- hair straightener
- youtube video series (licca-chan living in reality, PBS pan pals; being suggested wood soup ASMR when i open the app late at night)
annotating my month playlist
- Sophmore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year - Fall Out Boy : will this be my sophmore slump or am i entering the comback of the year
- Pinocchio (Danger) - f(x) : im in d d d danger! anyone could see me... i could run into anyone...
- I Will Survive - Single Version - Gloria Gaynor : just survive somehow
- The DIY Machine (A) - Dave Vorhaus : moog playlist while doing readings
- Variation One - Stereolab : moog
- 六等星 - Kim Jaejoong, XIA : Please Survive. we have JX con in november... (like the tweet that's like please don't kill yourself we need people to stream...) (XIABAL are you JOONGNA michyeosseo?! fuck are you seriously crazy?! but with their names shoehorned in. saw the joint concert (where they are planning on singing old songs together..) announcement while on the subway. i was going to text back a friend from high school, who was asking how school is, that things Aren't Great. but then what news is delivered to me? EVERYTHING STOP. (image of the person with handcuffs breaking, staring into the sunrise) I Will Be There (like i wont but i will)
- A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton : making my way downtown
- I'm Interesting, Cheerful & Sociable - Errorsmith : moog playlist find but i like the title
- Everyday - Remastered 2013 - Jamiroquai :
- Mainframe Blues - David Vorhaus : moog playlist
- TTYL - Loosemble : lalala la lalala
- And I Know - Shunza : wu suo weiiii
- NEO UNIVERSE - L'Arc-en-Ciel :
- Shake It Off - Mariah Carey :
- Be My Love - English House Remix Version - Clazziquai :
- Supersonic - fromis_9 : almost teared up listening for no reason. when i first heard the snippet of the song they played on his talk show a few weeks ago, i thought they were saying "hit the swag" which turned me away from the song (turns out they're saying "heat and sweat")
- 悲傷的採購 - my little airport :
- Glass Shoes - fromis_9 : was on a bit of a fromis_9 kick, watching stage mixes on youtube
- You're - JYJ : clip someone posted Wow i didn't know
- PITAPAT (DKDK) - fromis_9 :
- Evergreen - TVXQ! : listening to my playlist while walking around campus
- 바본가봐 - IVY : fire
- Without You - Mariah Carey : my dad used to have this downloaded as an mp3 file
- 最後の雨 - Yasushi Nakanishi : saigo no ame 2014ish jaejoong performance
august
- stardew valley relapse
- wearing sunglasses
- self-speculation
- the price of salt by patricia highland
annotating my month playlist
- 片想い - Crystal Kay : a bit of a crystal kay month also i spent a lot of this month listening to the suggested tracks that play after running through all the songs in playlists
- B.A.S. (feat. Kyle Richh) - Megan Thee Stallion, Kyle Richh :
- Touch My Body - Mariah Carey :
- So Yesterday - Hilary Duff :
- hard to say - Crystal Kay : see note on crystal kay
- さくらんぼ - Ai Otsuka : suggested track (but i knew of this)
- 3月9日 - Remioromen : suggested track
- Life is a Highway - Rascal Flatts : license written test passed
- ENDLESS STORY - REIRA starring Yuna Ito : we support you nana also i can picture this being a highly-popular karaoke song when it was released
- Like a Cat - AOA : also a mild AOA month (but i don't know their names FWIW)
- SEXY LOVE - T-ARA : and also a mild T-ARA month (see above)
- Mission - JYJ : a tweet where someone shared that when they have to pee they repeat the part of the chorus that goes "Mission make it, mission let's go Mission make it make it go I must go make it mission Let's go mission, make it go I must go make it mission Let's go mission make it go" until they get to a washroom
- Anything but Ordinary - Avril Lavigne : in a auto-generated time capsule playlist also i faintly heard the radio (?) playing avril lavigne over and over (assorted tracks) at work
- Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne : see above
- Hot Pink - EXID :
- Because of you - After School :
- Venus in The Dark - Mika Nakashima : suggested track
- Two as One - CHEMISTRY, Crystal Kay : see note on crystal kay
- MOON & SUNRISE - BoA : suggested track
- Mad - Ne-Yo : suggested track
- Roly-Poly - T-ARA :
- Good Luck - AOA :
- WAKE ME TONIGHT - JYJ : wake me to.night, wake up to. night. so no. te de~~
- Do You Really Think Like That? - Helena Hauff : listening to an "elysia crampton" playlist out loud (dont ask me anything, i dont know the background or the context or the lore and i certainly can't name 5 songs) while doing a reading about neuropharmacology on a weekend (IIRC) (Wow this sounds like Neurons Firing!)
july
- soft-serve ice cream
- double cleansing
- just buying things if i need them
- nana (i was doubting for years but im glad im not reading this in high school)
- dusty pink top
annotating my month playlist
- The Ghost of You - My Chemical Romance : in the "whippopotamus"
- Ponyboy - SOPHIE : after faceshopping while baking, also i think of my horse prince
- CUPID - KARA :
- On And On - Utada : sidenote, i saw this cd in one of the 알라딘 locations (probably cheonho) i went to in may but i didn't get it because i was trying to be more selective..
- Addicted To You - UP-IN-HEAVEN MIX - Hikaru Utada :
- My Kinda Girl - Brian Mcknight, Justin Timberlake :
- Gateo (feat. Ms Nina) - Isabella Lovestory, Ms Nina : found on a stranger's 2024 playlist
- It's My Business - Seo Taiji and Boys :
- Never Ending Story - BOOHWAL : played on the radio in my mom's car, i insisted it sounded familiar but i couldnt identify an origin for certain
- Lady in the Rainy Night - The Classic : played on the radio app on my mom's phone left in the kitchen, the hosts were saying something about how people usually listen to sad songs in the rain but Why Not Switch Things Up?
- Empire State Of Mind - JAY-Z, Alicia Keys : made a joke to my sister about how i was going to the "concrete jungle where dreams are made" but she was so unimpressed that i had to ask if she even knew the song i was referencing (she did)
- Don't Stop Believin' (Glee Cast Version) - Cover of Journey - Glee Cast : another silly joke i made in some conversation (just a small town girl... just a city boy...) and its the glee cast version for comedic effect
- 너를 위해 - Lim Jae Beum : what are you doing here again! its just too fun to pretend to be middle aged
- GLAMOROUS SKY - Nana, Mika Nakashima : have been aware of jaejoong's covers since at least february/march but now that im reading nana i feel qualified
- It's Hard To Say "I Do", When I Don't - Fall Out Boy :
- Short Hair - AOA : wo-wo-woah gonna be all right right right
- Survivor - TVXQ! : listen while experiencing turbulence
- That's the Way It Is - Céline Dion : one of the waiters at ellen's stardust diner
- 粉雪 - Remioromen : jaejoong 2013 concert video on youtube where he's wearing a black button up shirt (hi) and also it was stuck in my head and i was humming it while walking around the new york at night, under the influence of a lack of sleep
- 十年 - Eason Chan : jyj concert video on youtube
- Cosmic - Red Velvet : everything is cosmic and also my sister is always playing music, some more enjoyable than others.
- Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap : mmm whatcha say oh that you only meant wellllll
- Sugar Town - Nancy Sinatra : 500 days of summer
- 그랬지 - 김재중 :
june
- dessert tofu
- hearing birds outside while its still dark
- yotsuba& (only volumes 1-3 so far; my favourite characters are fuuka, followed by yotsuba's dad, and im frequently captivated by torako)
- eavesdropping on the concerned people of reddit seeking wisdom
- bottled tea and buying bread if i so wish
- salt water
annotating my month playlist (minus 4 songs that i dont have much to say about nor care to include... noting this here for transparency's sake. tried
hard to stick to 24 songs only but alas!)
- TICKET - 9MUSES : came on in a youtube playlist while i was baking and i couldn't, nor did i care to, switch it!
- Memory Loss - Gummy :
- 길 - god : was reminded of this song
- 그 길에서 - DIA :
- Unforgettable - TVXQ! : IIRC listened while walking back from the subway station in the evening and was Struck by its Beauty in the Moment
- I Wanna Know - Joe : IIRC? jaejoong covered it in a tv? clip circa 2004?
- Distant Lover - Brian McKnight : came on shuffle when i was listening to his spotify profile before sleeping
- Back At One - Brian McKnight : see above
- That Girl - Esthero : bought the cd a few months ago for really cheap because the bookstore was having a sale (it all felt very cosmic, i dont think i had heard of this album), played the cd while i was cleaning my room and stopped to save this song to my playlist
- The 360 remix with robyn and yung lean - Charli xcx, Robyn, Yung Lean :
- 넌 언제나 - 모노 : came on the radio my mom was listening to in the car, i didnt know the tvxq version was a cover!
- Lesbians <3 - Alice Longyu Gao :
- Oh Yeah - MBLAQ :
- Erase (feat.Iron) - HYOLYN, Jooyoung, Iron : recommended to me
- 첫 사랑니 (Rum Pum Pum Pum) - f(x) : the morning before my wisdom teeth removal i happened to find myself watching performance videos on youtube of this song, the title of which happens to translate (roughly) to first wisdom teeth! #coincidence
- 내 여자야 - UKISS : found on a friend's playlist (oh how the tables turn?)(LOL like turntables)
- The girl, so confusing version with lorde - Charli xcx, Lorde : so sad to think about it almost made me tear up the first 2 times i listened to it and im not even really about that life so what was with that!
- The SHINee World (Doo-Bop) - SHINee : dibidibidis ...dibidibidis..
- LOVER SOUL - JUDY AND MARY : kind of ambivalent about the song but it was mentioned in My Wandering Warrior Existence
- Let The Rhythm Flow - 김재중 : silly reference i made while speaking (Having a hard time just Letting The Rhythm Flow...)
- Day Moon~ハルダル~ - TVXQ! : dont remember when i added it to the playlist but it makes me think of floating in the air, soaring in the skies
- Everything is Embarassing - Sky Ferreira : actually this shouldve been placed earlier in the playlist but its funny as a double feature (double listen?), back to back with the next track. and both are true! everything is embarassing, Sigh, everything is romantic, Sigh, (repeat).
- Everything is romantic - Charli xcx : see above. im also reminded of something i wrote to myself on march 1st of this year at one eighteen in the afternoon, "Just came up with a genius metaphor.: i have the vocabualry but not the grammar". except maybe its both that i lack. and also contrary to how it might seem based on the sudden influx of her music, i did not just discover charli xcx this month, not that theres anything wrong if that were the case.
- 別の人の彼女になったよ - wacci : came across jaejoong's cover of it (why doesnt he perform this live), watched a video with the english translation for the lyrics in its subtitles
may
- used book and cd store chain 알라딘
- peach iced tea
- navigating with the help of maps
- stardew valley
- slow progress on reading dungeon meshi
- dark green uv protective rain jacket windbreaker
- hydrocolloid patches
annotating my month playlist
- Sea of Love - Fly to the Sky : watched a video interview where this song and its music video were mentioned
- Lose That Girl - Saint Etienne : from a friend's playlist or maybe a spotify generated playlist
- time will tell - Hikaru Utada : on my radar
- And We Go Gentle - Hiatus Kaiyote : was playing in a cd store that i went to a couple of months ago to buy someone a present; saved it to my liked songs and remembered it
- Midnight Butlers - XXVeil : found out that the ensemble stars soundtrack was added to spotify, giving it a listen, for old times sake
- I'm Your Man - SUPER JUNIOR : fun! and also i thought this was a collaboration with tvxq but belatedly realized that their voices arent on this song
- 12시 34분 Nothing Better - TVXQ! : nothing better than that... five months in and still uncovering new-to-me songs
- Addiction (집착) - BoA : the korean title is something more like "obsession" rather than "addiction"
- I Will... - S.E.S. : mentioned in a video interview
- 나도 남편이있었으면 좋겠다 - S.E.S : see above
- Mamma Mia - KARA : people busking
- Honeycomb Summer - Crazy:B : more ensemble stars, listening to this on the subway does anyone even know
- Take Five - Panzerballett : from a friend's playlist
- Supernova - aespa : su su su supernova i hope they had fun and i hope they had a laugh
- S. II. S (Soul To Soul) - S.E.S. :
- Go away, everyone - Uhm Jung Hwa : played in my uncle's car on the drive to the airport, i think it was in a "2002 pop" mp3 folder, i told my mom it sounded familiar because i think it was in a genre playlist
- 벌써 일년 - Brown Eyes : uncle's car
- Lalala - Lee Soo Young : see above
- Season In The Sun - Jung Jae Wook : see above
- Inmost - LEE SEUNG HWAN : see above
- Such a thing - Paul Blanco : see above
- First Love - NCT 127 : #throwback was brought to my attention by someone online but i dont remember who or where
- Armageddon - aespa : giving it a listen whenever i remember it which was quite often
- 반해 - Jun Hyo Seong : real earworm
april
- lush supermilk hair conditioning spray (Caved. I fell for Influencing. bought after telling myself that I could just return it after trying it once or twice since the sales person emphasized how generous the return policy is. but now im attached. its become part of my routine. ive gotten used to the scent now but the first day or two after buying it, i couldnt stop (hyperbole) smelling my hands after applying it into my hair)(toward the end of the day, whats left of the scent smells like yakult)
- home alone karaoke
- wasurenaide by TVXQ!
- still CD collecting
- still kim jaejoong
annotating my month playlist
- My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne : pre-shower
- Haven't Had Enough - Marianas Trench : spotify generated time capsule playlist, testing testing im just suggesting
- Tender Love - J-Jun : 여리디여....린 사.랑..을...
- Lapdance - N.E.R.D : pretty sure i found this on one of my friends' playlists
- Cosmic Railway - EXO : came on shuffle after a song i was listening to finished
- Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda - Brian McKnight : k.will sung it in a video with seo inguk and ahn jaehyun, rest of my life by brian mcknight is on a compilation cd my mom used to keep in her car, singing while alone
- How Do I Live - LeAnn Rimes : singing while alone, i associate this with my dad but im not sure why, maybe he had it downloaded
- What R U Guys Talking About? - Kelly : what r u guys talking abooout
- A Very Hard Act to Follow - Naked Eyes :
- Never Should've Let You Go - Hi-Five : came on shuffle, maybe from a 90s rnb spotify genre playlist, woke up to it after taking a nap on the couch
- Billy - Horsegirl : caved (not that i was really under any sort of pressure) and bought tickets to see bôa in concert, was browsing on the ticketing site out of curiosity (this is the first concert ive bought myself tickets for, now that i think about it. and the second "real" "organized" "touring artist's" concert ill be going to) and saw Horsegirl is also going to be on tour, the name was intriguing so i looked the band up on spotify
- Eclipse - Kim Lip from LOONA : listened to the podcast version of it while on the train back after going to see the solar eclipse
- YOU ARE MY SPRING - Sung Si Kyung : had lots to do but decided to watch a >3 hour long recap video of Secret Garden (2010) on youtube
- Only scratches - Bois : see above
- Stay With Me Tonight - TVXQ! : stay withme toonight このまま友だちなら
(i cant read japanese so i cant punctuate it based on how the song sounds to me), we're tee vee ex queuee~~~. ba ba bapbap. bap baa bapbap. doododododoo
- The Way U Are - TVXQ! : its about. the. wayuR., listened while walking to deliver a cd i bought with my high school classmate in mind, 그! 너의 생각 너의 관심 (shoulder shrug), 네 귀에 달려 있던 (arms move) 귀걸이 네 몸무게 (fingers)
- Love Blossom - K.Will : youtube video with jaejoong and k.will
- 배신 - Baby V.O.X. :
- Why Try to Change Me Now - Fiona Apple : saw someone retweeted a tweet from 2015ish where gerard way said he's listening to fiona apple and someone commented by saying they like this song (i hadnt heard of this one of hers before)
- Stickwitu - The Pussycat Dolls :
- Typewrite Lesson - Cornelius : while listening to a song i found from a friend's playlist i was reminded of this song and mic check also by cornelius, lots of work to do but i decided i need to start to learn touch typing and so i spent >1 hour on a website
- PINK LABEL - Laysha : found on "troll kpop songs" spotify playlist shuffle, listened in the library while working beside my friend
- Lying - S#arp : burst out in dance while im supposed to be bursting out in words typed into word document
- 너를 위해 - Lim Jae Beum : karaoke vlog from aespa's karina and winter where they sung this, thought the song sounded familiar and its because jaejoong covers it sometimes in concert, later that day, watched a recording of a performance from 2011ish while eating a spicy burger
march
- wandering around and long walks to vague destinations
- CDs and looking at portable cd players on ebay
- be mine by infinite
- if i aint got you by alicia keys
- still TVXQ in the 2000s (see February) but also/more specifically kim jaejoong
- still watching movies and going to the movie theater (this month's movie days were the 6th, 12th, 19th, 22nd, and 30th)
february
- TVXQ in the 2000s (digging through fan accounts, forum threads found through the wayback machine, 14 year old fanmade youtube videos)
- vanilla pudding
- bright pink fleece zipup sweater
- watching movies/going to the movie theater alone (after not having watched a single movie in january i am pleased to report that ive seen a movie on the 1st, 6th, 13th, 21st, and 27th–one a week! )
- simple and clean by hikaru utada
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