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Sister Safety Pin - Lorrie Sprecher

Iso drove me to the Greyhound station, and we kissed goodbye. The visit hadn't been everything I'd hoped for. Iso hadn't fallen crazy in love with me. She wasn't perfect. But I thought back to the vacuum my life had been before I met her, and I climbed onto that bus believing I had to hold on to what I had. [...] Out the window, I could see the ocean, and it was just space. I thought, my heart used to look like that before I met Iso–just empty space. I could have parked cars inside my heart without wasting it. But now my heart is full–full of Iso's auburn hair and the gentle way she touches me when we make love. I thought that would make a good poem if I ever had the guts to write it. I decided that I had to make her love me. I didn't want a parking lot for a heart. -p???
I wondered if I was strong enough to be generous. Quickly I counted all the reasons I was strong: a. I drove across the United States by myself and found an apartment b. I teach people c. I am cooking dinner d. I live alone and am surviving e. I remember to eat vegetables -p157

The Education of Harriet Hatfield - May Sarton

"Why? Is it bad to be an innocent? I suppose you are right. I am one" "Innocents get beaten. Look at me." "But they survive. I do look at you." -p129
There are, after all, advantages in being an old person. If you can be a rock and not fall apart. -p205
I am in a thicket of disorder and pain and end by just sitting at my desk and doodling the heads of strange animals. I discover that it is not a bad way to relieve tension and I am quite pleased by the odd animals I am creating. -p212
These days I see so much pain everywhere. And now here it is again being overcome. I have tears in my eyes and hope no one notices. -p271
[...] I say doubtfully, cause punishing them is not going to change their hatred and contempt and that is what my deepest dream is. - p301
"You are saying, and I hear you, [...] that you are somehow leading a new life. Your own. I find that moving. Thanks for telling me all this. Thanks for being my friend and trusting me with it." - p310
This is the way my life is these days and the way it will be. One major problem appears to be settled [...] and then another problem breaks over my head like a huge wave. Buit it's alright, I say to myself. It's the way things are. It's the real world and I am fully alive in it - p320

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